So I may be in love with a spy...
 

Well, here it goes. I met this girl online about a year and a half ago. We have spent just about every free moment we had either chatting, skyping, talking on the phone usually for hours on end.

When we first met, it was an instant connection. As if we had known each other our entire lives, and then some.

There where some things here and there during our conversations that she would slip in, that seemed odd. Things that would give me immediate flashbacks of things that a previous employer would want to know. I don't want to get into the details, but let's just say that I have rattled some cages in the past (understatement really).

Anyways, I still played along, even adding a few comments, questions etc and gauging responses. After some months it became very clear to me that she was trying to gather information about me. Nevertheless, I always enjoy spending my time talking to her.

I ended up leaving the country a short while after we met online and I just recently returned. It got to the point that I started developing feelings for her and I became insecure, and started wondering whether or not she was spending all this time talking to me because she wanted to, or because of ulterior motives. I've told all this to her on several occasions before we met and she just denied it nonchalantly. If she was not a spy, I think the thought of that would have been so far out as to cause a freaked out reaction, but she was basically not even phased by the question.

Not only do I feel like I am in love with her, I have been getting the feeling that she feels the same way. Our last webcam session after I hinted about having feelings for her, she had the song "I knew I loved you before I met you" playing in the background and was singing along to it, and had tears in her eyes. When opening up about my insecurity, she had gone on to say that I am amazing, and has gone on about all the times I have been there for her etc etc.

We met last night for the very first time in our lives. It was nothing short of a magical feeling. Nonstop laughs, and and all around good time.

At the end of the dinner, and maybe it was the alcohol talking I brought up the whole spy issue again. And she denied it of course. Then I said "are you really never going to tell me" to which she just replied "nope". Then I said "so you`re gonna take it to the grave", to which she replied "yep".

Of course after the response I received I became a little upset, and then she went on to say that I ruined the night. She insisted on paying for dinner, which she did. I couldn't believe it.

Just before we parted ways, and as she was now also upset, I thanked her for dinner, then proceeded to tell her that maybe my mind was playing tricks on me because she is just too good to be true. We hugged, I gave her a kiss on the cheek and that was that.

I just don't know what to do at this point. We both obviously have real feelings for each other. But on the same note, I feel like I can't go on knowing that she is keeping this big secret from me.

I know some of you guys will think this is far fetched and crazy, but if you where in my shoes you would know that it's not.

I seriously just have no idea what to do at this point. I know we would be amazing together, but this would always be in the back of my mind.

GFY to the rescue!

Dude go to the doctor. You need to be on meds.

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I sincerely wish that were the case.

lolllll....

nice story if it is true..go get some help

Be a man and stop whining like a little bitch.
Why on earth would she be spying on you and gathering information?

She obviously wasn't as attracted to you in real life when she sees how insecure you are, and things will be awkward from now on. You fucked up...

'tis true. I just polished off my leftovers lol...

http://newspaper.li/static/f53067977...42883fdbcf.jpg

Lithium dude.

No sane person would believe gfy would handle something like this seriously ;)

LOL! Way to fuck with his sick mind! :1orglaugh

Only telling him the truth.

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I welcome any and all responses. For arguments sake, just assume that what I'm saying is 100% accurate.

For once in my life I am not sure what to say.....

I completely understand where you are coming from. No offense taken. It really is hard to fathom unless you are in my position.

do a lot of people spy on you?

Is she left-handed?

:1orglaugh That is Grade-A shart material.

You met an attractive woman. You may feel like you’ve known her all your life – probably this is not true. Whether she has spied on you all your life is a different matter. Maybe she has spied on you for a large part of your life. I think it could be difficult to achieve one-on-one conversations with the person of your choice. That’s why people sometimes have to talk to other references and gather information from other talkers. Some secrets will always be kept. It’s good that you are creating lots of conversations, phone talks and other responses. Although you will never know everything about the person, it’s quite possible to know more. Good luck.

Spies spy on other governments and government organizations. I have a feeling you are neither. Feds don't go under cover for a year and a half unless you are some kind of mafia king pin, which you aren't. So where does that leave you?

Fatfoo is back and more badass and insightful than ever before....

Dude a BOT just solved your problem - you have to talk to REFERENCES about her? Her friends, family etc...to find out if you're being played.

if this is all true, and you are really desperate, then my suggestion is this:
tell her, you can't keep talking to her, unless she comes clean.
And then cut her off, no msn, no phne no nothing. If you mean something to her, she should tell you the truth.

i have read all that 3 times and i have no idea what you are going on about
why do you think she is a spy

maybe she works as escort, end of story

He left already guys. He never stays in one spot for very long.

I had a question along the reading, do you have something to hide ?

Sounds weird (if true).

why the fuck would anyone spy on you, you retard

i feel for the girl. she probably doesn't realize she has been talking all this time to a paranoid schizophrenic.

What would she be taking to the grave?

In my opinion If she was a spy she would probably try to initiate a meeting with you in real life sooner than waiting a year and half to meet in real life.

umm she insisted to pay for dinner because she is guilty? ;)

You should have paid.

I was out of the country for most of the time we where talking. When I returned I was the one that held off on meeting her, although she was after me almost daily that we had to meet, she wanted to meet me so bad, she's never had to work so hard to get a guy to go out with her, always the other way around etc.

I don't know your situation. Two things stood out to me.
When something feels too good to be true, but might actually be true, you get scared and can in turn sabotage your chance at happiness. Another thing is she can be putting on a persona of being nonchalant to keep your interest because YOU keep insisting on some mystery/secret.

Phew, another fool would have charged for that one.

You need:

http://crimemagazine.com/images/polygraph.jpg

lol, good one.

I actually also forgot to mention that every since I started bringing up the spy thing I have been receiving random unexpected packages on a regular basis. In all instances I have contacted the courier companies and all have said unknown sender, was dropped off at UPS store etc.

yep, I was thinking the same