So I am back, sort of
 

I know that since I've been gone for over a year many people have speculated about whether I would ever return or not. In all honesty I have been asking myself the same thing. I never really intended to leave, but I did so at a very difficult time in my life, after having struggled with health issues for many years already. So I never skipped town, just took a step back and chose to focus on getting well, in hope of eventually coming back.

As for the kind of health issues I have, it has eventually been discovered that I have ADHD and, although undiagnosed, I also seem to display some distinct signs of Asperger's syndrome. After having been bounced back in forth in the health care system for about six years and counting, neither of these issues have been addressed properly. So I am stuck with low motivation, as I never seem to get off my butt to start things, I'm easily bored and need constant new stimuli, I can't concentrate on things for too long which means I almost never finish things and so on. From this comes quite a bit of frustration over having a ton of knowledge and not being able to apply it to my own benefit as well as over the fact that I easily obsess over things that are done any way other than mine. All this has resulted in a long-drawn depression as well as severe anxiety, which are the main reasons why I disappeared.

Nevertheless, despite slim chances of doing any actual work, I do intend to stick around and do a whole bunch of research. As somewhat of an outsider at this point, with long and solid past experience in adult and a lot of current experience in mainstream, I am convinced that I can generate quite a bit of value to the right ventures. So it is my intention and hope to keep digging until I find some ways to make lots of money without much work. I know this sounds like anyone's dream, but in my case it's actually a must, since working a lot doesn't seem to be an option for me at this time, it's simply physically/mentally impossible for me to do so.

I might resume doing tips articles, although it probably won't be happening right away. Perhaps I could do some consulting too, but to be honest I'm not sure about this part as I've always hated working for others. Regardless, I will be posting more, primarily on ADX, but also on other boards if topics are of interest to me.

As for the people I have made commitments to in the past and I am yet to deliver, I haven't forgotten. Although I can't specify a time at which I will make good on them, I fully intend to follow through on my promises and also provide some compensation for the anguish of not knowing what happened to me and if I'd ever come back to make good. Just be aware that it may take a while and there's also a possibility that, if my health condition worsens again, I may be MIA once more, so please don't panic. In a sense, if I made a commitment to you, you probably already wrote it off in the past year, so with me coming back you're really in a better shape to get what's owed to you than you were only a few days ago.

Who are you again?

Welcome back ;)

things that make you go hmmmmm............................................ ..................................

Welcome back, DamageX.

Cop out. ADHD does not exist. You broke bro?

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Thanks for sharing DX and I sincerely hope that you are able to function the way that makes you happy. Welcome back

what we really need is a white knight to save the industry then turn out to be a hypocrite then disappear.

Can you imagine Chris Mallick making a similar post? :)

fired from mc donalds? :)

Don't worry, that's an adult industry standard ...

Heh, how true... Now I guess all I have to do is scam everyone I can and then go away forever. Perhaps go into the movie business or something?

Welcome back :)

You've provided great information in the past that i'm sure has helped tons of people.

As far as the ADHD thing ..im one of those that thinks its just all in your head...what I suggest you do is focus on living a healthy life style and keep a proper diet and exercise aswell a mental health and that shit will be gone out of your life :)

I don't have the attention span to read all that.


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oh excuse me, havent seen that health problems before, get well :thumbsup

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I don't either maybe we both have ADHD as well.

"Exit strategy" :1orglaugh ...

While I don't believe in ADHD, I do believe many behavioral symptoms may lend to , ADHD-like behaviour. I know exactly what you mean about following through on projects. Get all gung-ho to do it and half way through lose all motivation. Anxiety has been a curse for me for over a decade but there is help. Keep busy. Get lots of sunlight. Smoke some weed and listen to motivating music.

Your diet will also have a surprising health and mental abilities. Eat foods that arte high in protein, low in red meat and high in fiber. Avoid stimulants like coffee and pop.

Number one thing about motivation and boredom with projects though, is to stop thinking about how much you are accomplishing!! You'll never believe in yourself if you put all that pressure from ur issues on yourself!!

lucky us, how many fucks does it take to give a shit:321GFY :1orglaugh :)

hey man this isn't a medical condition, this sums up the frustration in every man woman and child on this planet...

wanting to do more is human.

Welcome back, stranger!

The gf's 10 yr old has the exact same problem ADHD and a mild form of Asperger's syndrome. He's taking vyvanse and abilify which have helped him big time

You'll be needing one of these.

http://www.noisebot.com/adhd_ad_hd_t-shirt.htm

Good to have you back.

Well, it practically IS all in my head. :) Kind of hard to think it's only imaginary though, as I can't think of a way how to mentally get my brain to produce the proper levels of dopamine.

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Thank you kindly! :thumbsup

exactly.

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well..............yeah!
yup :thumbsup all in the head

Get High.
http://www.angryblacklady.com/wp-con.../SmokeWeed.jpg

I'm sure it'd help temporarily, but not a viable long-term solution.

:1orglaugh I'm digging that pic, that's awesome :thumbsup

Welcome back DamageX! :pimp

Welcome back:thumbsup MMJ - Cannabis might help you with your ADHD! Find a good strain and try it.

Translation:
My board and my business are failing

INstead of smoking pot why not work out a good diet for yourself and if that wont cut it get medicated. Then you have no excuse.

But if he has no excuse, he'd have actually................ah, nevermind

I fixed your typo's.

ADHD is NOT a health condition and does not exist. Do not kid yourself. Blaming lack of motivation on a disease is fucking hilarious!

Welcome back!

Welcome back

welcome back to GFY!

Welcome back :)

welcome back!