Hating everything and always being enraged and drinking
 

I just realized yesterday that I've been hating everything for several years, now. I think fixing that will be good for me!! I'm not the guy who hates people for having nice shit, but I got to where I did nothing but get mad at certain things I can't stand. Then I would drink and get enraged like a maniac.

You know, go out driving, want to murder every driver for being so brain dead. Finally figure out that god doesn't give a fuck about me, curse him non stop. See chomos on television getting a slap on the wrist and wanting to break their faces for them. Then I'm always mad and angry about the government outright raping everyone from a thousand angles. Etc etc etc

Well, now, I've been feeling great because every time I feel like cursing or breaking something or getting real mad... I just settle down and say fuck it

I think that I am minus the heart attack that was coming and plus a-lot of money before too long now that I fixed myself. When it got to the point where I'd rather be home, by myself, drunk and alone and starting fights with people all over town, than have a foxy broad over to give her a spanking and cum in her mouth - that is when I realized how wrong I'd been

I just am going to appreciate what I do have. Good food, my favorite lady friend is finally getting better at blowjobs, my favorite television programs, a good running automobile, reasonably good health and hopefully a ton more sobriety :thumbsup

Weakling ...

Me too :-(

24 and I hate people.

Sobriety is a good thing, and I hope you can keep it! :thumbsup

Don't get down on yourself too much about hating people, there are good, valid reasons to do so. Just channel that hate into something productive, like work! Work harder so you're not the one getting fucked, but eventually have the means to do the fucking ;)

someone touched you as a little boy. get over it. not worth killing yourself over.

I love drink as much as the next sane man, but that shit has to be controlled.

The secret to life is to keep yourself clear. You don't need ferrari's etc as long as you can wake up in the morning without owing the world. Get debts cleared and keep it that way, or at least easily manageable.

Also whilst the path is never easy, God does care about you ;)

Keep it up man, life is looooooooooong and sweet :)

I'm not drinking and love people :)

Double post...

It is great that you've realized you were in the wrong mindframe. Realization is the first and most important step towards change. Now do something about it :)
Meditation helps, and believe or not, a short 4 or 5 day vacation does too.

mass murder / suicide could be your only way out.

GFY is useful sometimes

... or conversion to fatfooism:

Get yourself a girlfriend. Maybe pump out a kid or two. Trust me, that type of shit will take away from all the incessant thinking that you're doing.

Or smoke weed. Or take prozac. Or say fuck the world, strap on a backpack, and go traveling to some crazy places.

[QUOTE=MrMaxwell;18029660 my favorite lady friend is finally getting better at blowjobs[/QUOTE]

She is getting much better isn't she?


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Not sure how old you are but maybe have your testosterone levels checked. Diet can also affect your mood.

Either way its healthier to have a good outlook on life than a negative one. Good luck.

I think they're low
I've lost a lot of muscle since maybe '06 and my sex drive is at all time lows
I'm still GRRRRRR with my lady friends and a raw nasty dog of a man .. but not as "bad" as I use to be at all

I think the alcohol does it

Hell yes
A good blowjob woman is tough to find around here... I mean, fucking seriously. Even if you don't mind if she looks horrible (which I don't if she's good)

Finally found one who is local, a knock out fox, and is learning to do a good blowjob... getting better all of the time

And still I end up sitting drunk ignoring when she calls :error