You can't run from your problems.. but I'm a month sober because I moved
 

Shit has been a lot TOUGHER up here... but it MAKES SENSE.. I can survive anything. That one horse town made zero sense and was a mental torture nightmare. I am shocked and amazed that I didn't drink myself to death there or m**der one of those hysterically negative cock blocking motherfucking cock sucking pussy eating prankster ass bitches.

Shit ain't easy at all up here, but I have a CHANCE. And that is all I ever asked for.

Things MAKING SENSE makes the difference. A few days ago my only car started fucking up. Without that piece of shit I am FUCKING FUCKED. But I realized, hey, if your piece of shit car breaks down it's because you didn't make any sales and you're poor.

That makes sense. I can deal with that if I have to walk down the road. Even if I have to stay with some lady friend for a week or two. (I abhore the idea of living with one of my lady friends)

The point is, I wasn't running from me. I love myself. And I can survive anything if it's not Hutchinson fucking Kansas.

I can drive by a liquor store and not have my cock start drooling at the thought of buying a bottle. I literally use to get horny for ALCOHOL!! I chose drinking over seeing women, when I was there!!

NOW I am having at least one blowjob a day, spanking some beautiful foxy female ass, fucking better and my health is coming back (mentally and physically - I'm coming back!)

Don't ever discount the idea of a change of scenery. No, you can't run from you BUT you CAN take yourself out of a BAD ENVIRONMENT and it WILL HELP!!!

I'm broke and afraid of what will happen because of not having enough, but I am okay, now. Inner peace means everything. I know that I can make it, now.

You can't afford $5 a week according to your other thread. I am guessing that your "chang of scenery" would be better if you juts found some "change" as in dimes and nickels. Oh yeah, and this :2 cents: might help as well.

oooh congrats! ugh, Kansas.

Yeah I am hoping to get out of the deep south in the not too far future, but family keeps us anchored. Misery loves company, too.

You can say whatever you want about me, pal. Yes.. I am broke... So fuckin' what. The $5 ain't the issue, it's the fact that I made payments 80 times that amount for him and now the $5 is such a huge deal. I always repay him even though he's so far into me.

But yet you still have internet access and a computer to type it on. Sell your shit and take care of your obligations man. If you were that concerned about it you would.

Exactly. I would leave Kansas in a heartbeat. But my little grandmother is over in Hutchinson and no one cares about her, but me. My sister does but she works 12 hours a day AND goes to college. What can she do, you know?

At least Wichita has foxy broads who brighten up my day with their smile, just absolutely are thrilled to do a good job of pleasuring me, will cook for me, etc... AND I can make money here when I decide to.

I am just so happy to have basic comforts and to be sober and not thinking about alcohol all of the time that I haven't really gone out and sold anything, yet. But I will

Seems like a positive move... Congrats ;)

I DID! I sold my lcd televsion and my computer. My quad core box with dual HD monitors. I loved that crazy thing and I had to sell it for $400 :( The one I am using now is an older AMD X2 64 but it works alright and I saved one of the 22" HD monitors

The 22" is small, to me, but it's enough to watch programs on and get any work done. I've designed flyers on it, made a couple of galleries, and I check my e-mail.

I paid $60 for this computer. I could sell it around here for maybe $100-$200. Then I'd have no computer. It's worth keeping. Internet is free because I told them it sucks (very true) and they comped it.

I don't even have a television, now. The room has a 19" crt with a washed out picture.

Even sold my little Z5300 surround system because it's too loud to play here. Got a nice little set of speakers for $5 and they work great.

Thanks Mr. JMan!! :)

I abhore the idea of being human. I didn't want to be even when I had money. But if you think I'll ever be all depressed and suicidal, you're crazy.

You can laugh and make fun of me being broke all you like... but the fact is, I am happier even with a shitty little existence than most of you are with your big bank accounts. I have what makes me happy. Good food, blowjobs, and the chance to help people have better lives.

Sure, being poor is a huge lack of freedom and it is scary, but I can handle it. I know a lot of you who would piss and shit all over yourselves if you were in the spot I am in. I'm calm and I'm cool and I can handle it.

Keep laughing fool because in a few months I'll own your lilly ass

anytime a dollar leaves your hand and you do not have a signed contract/agreement in place, consider it gone :2 cents:

that goes for favors as well. dont expect anything in return or you will get burned

hope you can at least afford to feed your kids..

The only outright debts that haven't been collected are ones loved ones have. Anyone I am not related to who owed me PAID ME. I would die before allowing someone not pay what is owed.

The rest of them are just things like I fronted them money, one guy I saved his whole business, etc. If just ONE of them would remember what I did I'd be set. It bothers me.

There are two people who have ever gotten away with outright fucking me out of money

1. Kevin Jung in Irvine California - Stole $450 I sent him for discounted domain registrations back in ?1998?

2. Howard Ber***** in Hutchinson Kansas - Failed to repay $500 to me. But I love the guy and don't have the heart to see him all ***** up. Same thing with loved ones. What do I, send some ****le over to ***** their ***s?

Positive change is good stuff, so congrats on that!

congrats. now go celebrate with a drink.

So... stay with your grandmother and help her out while you get back on your feet?