Putting things off.. what causes it?
 

I've been horrible about it since maybe '03 or so... just horrible

Time keeps getting away from me, I have to get my spark back. You know, the GRRRR part where I was like a pitbull who wanted money for dinner EVERY DAY :1orglaugh

>>>>> fear!!! <<<<<

I hear procrastination has something to do with it.

I'd look it up and research it more but I just don't feel like it. I'll do it tomorrow. Maybe.

lol i go to work come home and work some more.. I hate being a slob :)

I saw a thread on here time thinking vs. time doing, opened it in a new tab and I swear to god it was open for a week and then I lost it... that is how HORRIBLE I am with this

it's genetic, sorry.

This thread? https://gfy.com/showthread.php?t=1027887

Anyway. I've found that working with a partner has helped me be more productive. You can also try to set up a schedule / campaign and stick to it strictly.

Working with a partner was great.. we had a great time scaring ourselves and normal people. Made a lot of money, too!! I never DO something and DON'T make money. Just keeping myself active has become a challenge.... Not sure what happened

That's the thread maybe I should read it

Fear causes it.

At least that's my excuse.

I sort of believe that I am afraid of what I will do when I have money again... I think

It's so fucked up I've fixed everyones life I've ever known and then I can't fix mine
The more I try to do right the worse things get

Sometimes I think the only time I can feel right is with a bottle in one hand and a cigarette in the other - I've done AMAZINGLY well about not drinking for a few months and only smoke about once a day ... But damn

I think I am doing right just seeing one woman, too, but damn it's tough some times. I feel like I should not even talk to all of my lady friends anymore out of respect to my woman (I am old skool) but I miss that some times

Well all they did was use me .. sure they bought this and that and took me here and there but only because they wanted the spankings and the sex and everything

I just don't know sometimes

I FINALLY just sat down today with a couple of drinks and a cigar and listened to some MUSIC - it's been so long since I listened to some MUSIC - and I am just trying to put everything together in my mind

Sorry for venting out loud ... ha ha ha
I do that some times on gfy
I never talk to anyone about anything, it can be nice to vent a little - ha ha ha
I mean shit so many people put all of their problems on me .... It would be nice to go to someone with mine ONE TIME

Lol!!!

Okay so ten years ago this was me. Four clean nice Cadillacs outside, travelling all of the time... Had a modest home but it was large and had an enclosed patio with a huge fountain and 3' long pacu fish

Making deals EVERY DAY .. I LIVED for that

Shit I was happy

I don't need the god damned world
But next time around I think I will have a little more power.. it felt kind of good when no one would want to motherfuck with me or the people I did business with...

Never ever do I EVER want to go back to living in a rathole with a gun on me SCARED all of the time every day.. I've done THAT too and No more drunken days or scary situations.... No more jail no more desperation now I am too old now for two bit shit and I have talent

I just got to get my game on and not motherfuck around no more

Do you feel better now?

Yeah. A couple of drinks (and I do mean only a couple) and some ranting - I am good to go, now :thumbsup