free flowin
 

Hey there. How are you doing today. Hopefully real well.

This thread is for me. And maybe you.

If you can dig it, then stay a while and my best.

If you would like to join in with a fav vid or pic or whatever, please do.

I will no longer be posting my vids in any threads but my own. :) Yeaaay :)

free flowin

i should laugh
but i cry
cause your love
has passed me by



no time for a summer friend



im getting closer to my home



back in the high life again



while you see a chance, take it



and fade away



and fade away

i'm 15 for a moment
caught in between 10 and 20
and i'm just dreaming
counting the ways to where you are

i'm 22 for a moment
and she feels better than ever
and we're on fire
making our way back from Mars

15 there's still time for you
time to buy and time to lose
15, there's never a wish better than this
when you only got a hundred years to live

i'm 33 for a moment
still the man, but you see i'm of age
a kid on the way, babe
a family on my mind

im 45 for a moment
the sea is high
and im heading through across it
chasing the years of my life



15 there's still time for you
time to buy and time to lose..
yourself within a morning star

15 i'm all right with you
15, there's never a wish, better than this
when you only got a hundred years to live

half time goes by
suddenly you're wise
another blink of an eye
67 is gone
the sun is getting high
we're moving on

i'm 99 for a moment
time for just another moment
and i'm just dreaming
counting the ways to where you are

15 there's still time for you
22 i feel her too
33 you're on your way
everyday's a new day

15 there's still time for you
time to buy and time to choose
hey 15, there's never a wish, better than this
when you only got a hundred years to live

[the last note, like the last heartbeat, is missing from this song, purposely, brilliant piece of work]

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old man take a look at my life



i'm a lot like you were



old days, good times i remember
fun days, filled with simple pleasures



take me back to the world gone away
memories seem like yesterday

for you Karla Marie, you were the best I ever knew



10 miles east of the highway
hot sparks burning the night away
two lips touching together
cheek to cheek
sweatshirt to sweater













just my thoughts about you
bring back my peace of mind

maria i (still) love you









it used to be so easy to be your lover

This thread is dedicated to the friends I have found at GFY the last 3 years since I came back.



L-Pink, Mister Peabody, CaptainHowdy, CD Smith, Spunky, even Serge and several more.

Off the top of my head, JFK was always a gentlemen and is a good guy. garce is a cool guy. I remember still when we had our discussion about Sweet Baby James one night when things were real. :)

sometimes late when things are real

for my favorite guitarist :)



ADG is the best and we had some fun times. :) Thanks for the great posts you always made.

Sleazydream was kind to me when I needed it. I think I called him Sleazybear a couple of times :) I had just posted my tv themes thread and as usual in the end felt like it was a waste of time, when he suddenly gave my mad props. That meant a lot. Thanks. :)

MP and LP were very kind to me when I needed it. Thank you guys. I will always feel indebted to you for your kindness. And a guy named Gabe was there to offer help even tho I never met him. Real nice guy.

MP, I owe you about 6 paragraphs :) but I'll just say thanks for being one of the first around here to be my friend. We had some great times. :) Love ya buddy.

LP, ditto. Love ya buddy :)

And baddog came out for one of the funnest times I had. When he posted so many great pics in my outlaw thread. Thanks buddy. That meant a lot. I had a lot of fun there.



I almost died one night of a nose bleed I could not stop. This was just days before Lucky was attacked. I came to GFY and 3 guys were there. That means more than anything to me. Porno Jew was there as was Spunky and MP with words of support.

In the end all we will have is our few true friends. I consider all of you best friends forever. bff :) Thank you for always being kind to me.

I hope we had a few good times. I know I did. I think our lives are more than webmastering and who has the most traffic or who is the biggest baller. Hopefully I added something to your life as you did to mine.

I am in my prime mentally. But this is really a young man's board. I cant escape my age and experiences which are becoming irrelevant due to age.

As I approach double nickles in January it is prob time for me to move on.

I don't want to look like a fool out here. Or anymore like a fool than I already do. lol :)

Time will take everything we have including all our possessions and all our friends. But it can't take the memories we had. :)

and i dont believe in time



I lost both my best friends this year. My mom, aged 95 and Lucky, my cat since 2000. It shook me up and made me look at life differently.

I got so much love and support when I lost Lucky. Not one negative comment.

3 pages of love - 122 posts - 1145 impressions for Lucky.

All of these people are my friends forever:

Thank you ALL for your kindness:

d-null 4
Tjeezers 4
MisterPeabody 4
Intrinsic 3
CurrentlySober 3
gabe100 2
AsianDivaGirlsWebDude 2
Mr Pheer 2
CyberHustler 2
jollyperv 2
suesheboy 2
Bill8 2
L-Pink 2
CYF 2
Mutt 2
sperbonzo 2
porno jew 2
idtapdat 2
Spunky 1
WarChild 1
seeric 1
_Richard_ 1
******* 1
Failed 1
atom 1
PR_Glen 1
icymelon 1
KBHMN 1
cherrylula 1
GregE 1
newB 1
pantyfreek 1
thickcash_amo 1
Babaganoosh 1
18teens 1
spunky99 1
calvinawe 1
babymaker 1
Deej 1
$5 submissions 1
TeenCat 1
gleem 1
Jon Oso 1
SIK 1
sweetums 1
********** 1
Shotsie 1

I remember that terrible night. I posted and Warchild was there with the first good advice. When it really mattered, you were there. Thank you Warchild.

One minute I posted about our first frost on 9-15. An early hard frost. Remember that? I posted a screenshot of the weather. That frost, that abnormally early frost, jumbled up and shuffled the hand of fate and put Lucky on a course for disaster.

http://www.sqvirtual.com/img/weather1.jpg

It was 3am on 9-15. I had just posted the screenshot above of the first frost in central MN. Lucky was inside laying down. At 6 am I let Lucky out as I always did 10,000 times before.

He had come in during the night as it was cold out. 24 hours later I was on my knees placing his stiff body into the ground that my friend had dug the hole for and on my friends property near his two dogs he had lost incl one dog this year as well.

Apparently in retrospect some other cat had bit him in the neck and latent FLV killed him rapidly. His body could not defeat the infection that a healthy cat would have.

I watched him die in the car on the way to the vet. I had no minutes on my phone and about $4 to my name. Literally. It was absolutely the bottom in my life.

He died about two mins after we went into the car. I was going to the vet dead broke. He gave me one last gift. He saved me $200 or more I would have owed by dieing before the vet as they would have certainly euthanized him. To watch him die was crazy. He went quick tho. Within two seconds which I am very thankful for. I did not realize he was that bad.

Sometimes I dont want a new cat as I dont ever want to feel the pain I felt again. But I know that is how life is.

Two people wrote me. I should prob not say who but thank you both. You know who you are. The kindness you showed me during my darkest hour, I will never forget.



I still dont have a new cat. Waiting till I can afford one :) lol which is pretty sad huh. :) I should at least have enuf money for a vet if I need one.

But soon I will be able to afford a new little guy. :)

I kept news about mom quiet as I thought that was best. But taking care of her the last few years and watching her die was very hard and changed me.

It was a very painful year. Thank you all for making it a little bit better and for your kindness. Maybe you can understand why I escape to music to sooth me.

I know they say never say goodbye around here but if I dissapeer I want you all to know..

I had the time of my life. :)



Thank you to GFY for building and managing the platform. It really helped me this year.

You all were very nice and treated me very well.

Thank you.

for mom

we dont have tomorrow but we had yesterday



for Lucky

I always thought, for some reason, I would never take you in for the final vet visit as i did to every other cat I had and i was right buddy.

As Bill8 told me, "he lived his life like a cat, and died like a cat." You were right Bill. This is how a cat is supposed to live. Free. That was the best advice I received in that thread. And really comforted me. Thank you sir.

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lucky and i walked along
under branches lit up by the moon

posing our questions to owl and eeyore
as our days disappeared all too soon



lucky wandered much further today than he should
and he can't seem to find his way back from the woods

so help me if you can, i've got to get back
to the house at pooh corner by one
you'd be surprised, there's so much to be done

count all the bees in the hive
chase all the clouds from the sky

back to the days of lucky and me

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I love you. Thank you for reading all this. My best to you and yours.

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dnull wanted to see some pics back then so here we go. Seeing as how he was among the top posters in my thread as well. Along with MP and Tjeezers. Also thanks Tjeezers and dnull for your comforting words.

This is Lucky. An American Breed. He was about 3-4 at this time.

http://www.sqvirtual.com/img/lucky1.jpg

I recieved eviction notices three times due to this cat and also was puched in the face once as he was running in my asshole neighbors yard.

http://www.sqvirtual.com/img/lucky2.jpg

He was a cat's cat. Prob killed at least 1000 birds/rodents. I mean it was a blood bath around here. I also saved prob around 1000 birds/rodents. I am sorry if that doiesnt sit well with some but this is the country and out here cats run free.

Still he had natures Karma against him after all that. Live by the sword, die by the sword I guess.

http://www.sqvirtual.com/img/lucky3.jpg

He loved being outdoors. In the winter he would sit for hours at the cat window I had for him with his butt in the heat and his face in the air.

I left the window open year round regardless of heat loss just for him. Also when I left home the window was open so he could get out if an emergency. Regardless of heat loss.

http://www.sqvirtual.com/img/lucky4.jpg

He would follow me if I went for a walk. Here he wants to get up and come to me.

This one was the hardest. All the other cats I said goodbye to. Never had the chance with Lucky.

He was Lucky for me tho and I was lucky to have him. :)

I loved him and he loved me.

Love ya Buddy



Thank you. My best.

Trying to write you MP but googlemail is down right now :)

Hey VJo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We love you, you crfazy Mini Soda bastard!! Double nickels in jan??? WTF - ain't nuthin' but an age thing. Some us ain't far behind ya, and some are further on up the road. :)

Life is about being cool INSIDE your own skin, inside yourself. That way the Universe reaches out and connects you with people you need in your life.

So hang around, be our friend, be here when we need you and we'll be here when you need us. It's all good. (Besides, I've been to Mini Soda and there ain't nuthin' there but fuckin' snow.)

Take some Ani's, come back tomorrow. It's the Holidays and we gotta party together on GFY come Christmas baby!!

And I thought I was bad. Guess I still have a lot to learn..

Thanks man. :) Ill be honest. I always have. Just really emotional today. Getting it all done at once.

I guess I can post my vids in my own threads but I sort of feel it is only for 5 of us maybe. I had one guy bitch me out for bumping my own threads too much one time.

But then I proceeded to lambaste him for 2 hours and havn't seen him since lol :). But I dont WANT to do that.

Maybe I would do better posting at YT Except this platform is better. I like to share vids and listen to em.

But last night Jakez (me and Jakez mended the fence and all is cool) but I know these younger guys, who are far in the majority think it is stupid. And maybe it is. :)

Plus I fucked up your thread. And I dont know. Maybe I am starting to lose it.

I admit. Getting older alone is a lonely experience and noone was a stronger loner or more of a man's man than me.

I guess I want more than two words in a thread that noone gives a rats ass about.

So I post these threads which allows us to shoot the shit once in a while. :)

So I like to keep it real. I guess I can post in my own threads from time to time.

garce, noone is more of a drama queen when I want to be. But this was drama I needed to do. :)

Closure and a lil tribute to Lucky and mom.

Hey, someday I will be there to read all your threads.

Keeping it real once in a while.

That is easy to say MP. That double nickels is no big deal. But I dont know. :)

Anyhow, thanks for reading my shit. :) I love yas. :)

Ya know what it really is? I have jury duty Monday Morning. :(

I think that put me over the edge. No big deal, I did it before and they released me early lol (long story that maybe I cant talk about :) ) except I have to be up at 4 am to get there by 8am. :( But I get $25 :)

Plus once you are there you can not leave (even for lunch) till they tell you. Ever been to jury duty?

You are literally a ward of the govt for a while.

I find it a bit disconcerting being the wild free natured guy I am. :)

BTW I am putting Marie back up :Graucho lol

Dont think I am too weird. I KNOW she is hot. :) lol

I must admit tho she carved herself up bad with plastic surgery.

Total fucking avoi dance

I hear ya man. Your perogative.

Thanks for stopping by. Like I said in the first post this thread is for me.

I read it and that is why I posted it. For me.

Anyhow, thanks to anyone who read my posts above. It meant a lot. :)

Have a good night/life. :)

Sorry for your loss buddy. I love my cat.

http://i.imgur.com/E8faN.jpg

You should definitely get another one, what do they say? "It's better to have loved and lost than never loved at all"?

Thanks man. I really appreciate that.

I know it was a sad read but maybe by going head on at this stuff we get peace.

I guess if I dont get a pot shot taken at me once in a while (not by you, you and me are cool now, but others, there is ALWAYS others :) ) I aint really making much noise. LOL :winkwink:

This is GFY I guess. :) Sometimes I suck. I do. Maybe not this thread but sometimes I do. :) You get what you pay for. :)

I will. Thanks. Yes it is better.

(that is my cold fish answer like most folks around here :) )

ya want one with some emotion? :)

NOT everyone is all angry all the time.

When I delivered pizzas.. (here we go :upsidedow)
in 30,000 pizza deliveries I never fucked with someones pizza UNLESS I fell and lightly jumbled it, MAYBE I would look at it. Never touch it BUT..

the main thing is, I would NEVER let the guy or gal at the door have a bad experience cause I was angry and tired. Which I often was. PROFESSIONAL.

To me, sniping someone's thread is the equiv of showing up at YOUR door with a sour puss of an attitide. Never happen. Too much pride in myself to ever let you see me down. And constant anger just means you (or I) cant cope.

Anger is for losers. Winners are happy.

not to you Jakes :) , to Mr Lightspeed who sniped my thread.

Like an angry pussy.

Show some fucking class for ONCE in your fucken life!

Anyhow this thread is for Lucky and mom and some fun with friends. :)

Sorry. Realize. Ya get one shot with me. (unless your name is written somewhere on this page lol :) ) I am sensitve. :) With a delivery guy's hair trigger temper. hehe :)

Ask Jakes. It took him 3 hours and 5 posts to get back on my good side. :)

And I dont think he even said anything wrong lol :)

otoh if your name is on this page, then I love ya and you can do know fucking wrong :)

And Jakes consider yourself included in "the" post above buddy. :thumbsup :thumbsup :)

Lightspeed, you would not be included. You are on the other list. (no smilie 4u) lol

I need a vid

When I was a kid and we were living somewhat in the country, our redneck neighbor came home in his F150 drunk as usual one night and ran over our pitbull who was still just a puppy, about 2ft long. As I ran to him the guy parked his truck and hopped out, looked over at me as I was trying to figure out what to do, said "whoops", slammed his truck door and went inside his house. Not so much as a "sorry". Some people don't have a heart. I think I remember hearing about that guy crashing into a telephone pole months/years later and burning to death.

Ringo lived, somehow. The middle of his body was crushed and I didn't even want to pick him up, he was coughing/sneezing up blood. Thankfully there was another neighbor who was a vet. I don't know how he lived, pure miracle.

Anyhow have a good night/life. Me, mom and Lucky are out of here unless anyone has any further comments. :)

It was pretty emotional day. Rare for me but it happens.

Thanks for reading our thread. My love again and best to everyone I mentioned. You are good people. :)

Believe me if they will reach out to a stranger like me, they are good people and they deserved to be thanked above.

This thread was because.. it was important in my life. :) And you are important to my life. Ya bastards. :)

Ok is it time for the big EL, that would be Elvis to sing me out of here.

Elvis my man, do the honors.



Pour LightSpeed a beer Newly. No REAL hate in any of my threads. :winkwink:

http://www.sqvirtual.com/img/newly1.jpg

Have a great one :thumbsup :thumbsup :thumbsup :)

all in all life is good :)

Jakez, let me take a break and then I will respond to your post. I see it was something important. I need a break first :)

I have been sitting here for about 10 hours or something. :)

Actually it is more like about 12 hours on this thread.

In 48 hours I have to get up for jury duty. How the fuck am I gonna do that? Maybe I will just stay up. Yeah that would not work. I have to go to bed EARLY Sunday. Heaven forbid.

Ill be back. My teeth are saying BRUSH ME :)

Like that lil bantamweight who won the Utl Fighter said, I will get up cause "I am awesome"

This posting is so destructive.

Is there a posters anonymous around?

Ok sorry Jakez. Glad to hear he lived. Yeah maybe the f'n guy seen him before he hit em.

Glad he is dead. hehe Not really but he prob had super bad Karma.

My best friend had a dog named Ringo. :) Lisa G on HS has a cat named Lucky. :) Small world :)

I have to call in Sunday night and see if I have to go to jury duty. If I dont have to, MAN am I gonna post a thread. LOL :)

j/k Last thread for a while I just made. :)

I'll prob have to go anyway. Oh well I need the (big) money I just hate the govt hours.

OK peace out all. Thanks Jakez and MP and garce and Lightspeed for stopping by. Was Spunky here. hmm

Oh well thank Spunky anyhow. :)

Im off to watch Survivor maybe. Kind of tired tonight again tho.

Later gaters. Have a good one.