Breaking a harmful ten year tradition.. thoughts?
 

I have only been drunk twice all year.
I have not had a drop in 3 months or more.

On new years eve for the last ten years I find a place to be 100% incommunicado, alone, and I get so loaded alcohol comes out of my pores (literally). I spend it alone with my loud music and some rum and some vodka and some beer. It is my time to cry and scream and REMEMBER (I can not remember anything when I am sober, any more, nothing). And it hurts SO good. Me and amy winehouse and all of my use to bes and people who died and the good times all coming back in the music and the intensity and the everything.

The next day I am running so slow that you literally can not feel a pulse on me. I feel faint, and move so slow that I can watch my arm move for several seconds when I lift one. It is the most peaceful feeling I know of being possible for a human being.

Well. This time my sister and my woman are violently opposed to me doing it. I want to do it, with every fiber of my being. But to not disappoint them I finally agreed to not do it.

If I do not do it - I believe that not doing it will cause me to be more likely do drink next year. Does that make any sense at all? Or is it empty pseudo rationalization? I am pretty sure that it is the latter.

have your fat girlfriend shit all over your face right before you take the first sip

Whats THEIR problem with it? They don't respect this one and only "alone-day" you have? Freedom :)

hey mr maxwell, how much money do you get each month on welfare?

Never been on welfare, never will be, at all and you know it.

She is not fat, silly

You should absolutely keep with tradition. This time though, use grain alcohol. Drink as much as you can. When you go blind it means you're almost there. Keep drinking.

All alcohol you buy is grain alcohol, right?

Everclear never made me have vision problems, but it did cause me to be waiting on my neighbor - on his porch - with a shotgun one time. Every time I ever drink everclear I get arrested. And the hangover is not very bad which makes it easier to want to drink.

Bad bad idea, moron.

No, not alcohol you buy is grain alcohol.

The problem with the Everclear is you're doing it wrong. You need to drink more. I'd suggest taking a handful of Xanax with it too.

I have heard of people dying from less everclear than I use to drink, you moron
One time I handcuffed myself to a tree with chains and drank a whole bottle all at once in the dark and ended up screaming mathematical equations far beyond my primitive math skills :1orglaugh

Everclear I use to love to hate that stuff

can't help you..

You're on the wrong board, go here...

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/

TBH sounds like a monday

Do you post when drunk? If not, I am all for you going back to drinking heavily.

Sounds like a Mad Monday

New Year's is a special day for me and I'd really appreciate it if you give me a call shortly before you head out to do it, please. Of course, that's still a couple of weeks away. One or both of us might get hit by a bus before that. Today, I'm going to go eat spaghetti.

:thumbsup:

My New Years tradition involves Hookers and Blow!