What in the name of god is wrong with alcoholics?!!
 

Jesus christ walking. I got to a point where I didn't want to drink any more. Then I let two women drive me to it. Not day to day- but the two times I did, both times I hung myself with the law (and I am pretty sure that I MEANT TO--- what the fuck is THAT about?!)

Anyway- the past few months I was with this woman, things going great, she knew about my past alcohol issues. So of all things suddenly I find out she has a huge past with drinking and drugs and she decides to let the floodgates of hell out.

By then I care for her (not in love- but I care very much for her and her boy)

So I think well I have had second chances. I try to stick it out, stand by the crazy evil cunt. I even took care of her son and protected him and babysat her bender having ass. Several times I thought I had reached her.

Well long story bla bla bla she's deep in the denial stage and PROJECTING (which is the most god damned frustrating thing EVER INVENTED- imagine someone doing god awful shit and ALWAYS not only being remorseless, but then turning around accusing you of what THEY do!)

Now here is the question--- her drinking in my face weeks at a time, I see how horrible the effects are-- I am pouring her bottles out, taking her keys, I see the look in the boys eyes when he is terrified of her .... etc etc etc .. fucking nightmare from hell

WHY THE FUCK DID I END UP DRINKING THAT DAY AFTER ALL OF THAT AND SEEMINGLY PURPOSELY GETTING MYSELF ARRESTED WHEN I HAD AN EARLY FLIGHT OUT THE VERY NEXT DAY?!!!

WHAT IN THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME TO DO THAT??

That is all. That is my question.
I can't believe it was even me.
How stupid was that?!

Go to bed now - If you are lucky this thread will have dropped to the next page by the morning and you will never know it happened.

"What in the name of god is wrong with alcoholics?!!"

They drink?

QFT...

8Char

That sounds awful. I spent the past year giving somebody second chance after second chance after second chance because she was utterly dysfunctional. I got burned too.

It's enough to make a cynic ... cynical - er.

Don't know what to say ... You take risks on people. Period. Nothing wagered, nothing gained. Nothing wagered, nothing lost.

Sucks, though.

what the fuck is wrong with people starting threads with jesus was walking

Like you said... you care for her.. and the second chance thing... you answered yourself

cheers mate :drinkup ill drink a few watching egg ball.