issues i swear
 

So I have been dating woman for 10+ year and enjoy their company. From time to time in between relationships, I found myself dating men occasionally. Now, I'm pretty inexperienced when in comes to have actual relationships with men. My dad died when I was 5 and I never had a relationsjip with my step-dad. Or any father figure.

Sinc I was about 18, I dated a few guys. No sex. (IT wasn't bad either)Then finally did it after long procrastination and freaked out by the situation, I stopped talking to him.

When I was 19, I had a male roommate and one thing led to another and we had sex. (Again not a bad experience)

Then I spent 4 years of my life with a abusive female who was so insecure with herself she took it out on me. I ended that and went on a crazy spell and starting dating lots of women.

After all my messing around I settled down in a 6 month "relationship" with a man. We never said "I love you" and he was purely sexually attracted to me. I was interested in his personality. Then we had sex and I walked out of his life, avoiding all his calls and emails. The sex was good.

I spent another year, celebate, and just thinking, I'm growing up I was to be more sound in my relationships whether platonic or romantic.

Now, I'm with female for 3 years and it has truly been a very trying time. Not sure what to do. She loves me. Comes from the adult entertainment history. B/c you know all the wild ones are attracted to me. I'm pretty conservative.

In any case, we have been having financial issues and now here I am. It has been so bad, we work so much, we never see each other, but in the morning and evening. I met this guy, he is cute, which is hard for me to find. Someone cute. You knowm but he just wants to get in my pants b/c I'm a fool and since I'm inexperience with men, obviously and unknownly sent him the wrong signals. I am confused.

Not sure what to do.

Any susgestions??? :(

Any Advice people?

Are you asking for permission to cheat on your girlfriend or just someone to say you should break up with her? I don't think anyone can offer you any SOUND advice based on what you posted because I don't think it's clear what you want.

What I read into your post is someone in serious need of therapy (no offense) because her TRUE feelings lean more towards being physically and emotionally attracted to men, but her inability to communicate with them makes her settle for women.

Well here the thing, I'm not attracted to me. I only find myself attracted to women. And the few guys I do think are cute... are so afeminate. I have been to therapy for many years. Those people are just as fucked up as we are. I don't settle for women, I'm excited in their company. I really like them a lot. And I like the sex with them and companionship. I guess I'm pretty confused b/c I just am. Cuz I'm a damn woman. Thats why.

Then, of course, I suggest a threesome.

I don't think I can handle a threesome. It would be weird b/c of nature, I am a manogomous person. I think if I want to play, I should break up with her. I actually hate being tied down. I like one-on-one. Don't listen to me. go to another thread.