I miss spanking a round ass. And big life changes are happening. Sigh.
 

You know,
Lita has been gone about a month now,
Not many women around here are "into" spanking..
I know that there are a-lot of female "bottoms" in Wichita just dying to be spanked, right, butt I feel like, fuck them I am not going to go and do that for free.

LoL over here.

The funny thing is, I know that Lita hasn't allowed anyone to spank her since we've been apart. And I know she needs it, badly.. she's probably running around driving drunk, staying out too late, creating a budgeting crisis and god knows what else. Sigh.

I really care for her. There was something extremely close about the domestic discipline relationship. Moments like, when I would comfort her after spanking her, and she would cleave to me and thank me.. Those just aren't easily forgotten.

She won't talk to me and for good reason..
But she's definitely cutting off the nose of her to spite her own face.
I know what her life was like before knowing me, and where she is headed.

I don't really want to be with her, any more... But I still care and deeply. I just hope that she's enjoying some dirty nasty fucking like she loves so much.. and not naively trusting them to be disease free.. I worry, so damned much

The kids, man, when I think about them and how they would light up when I stopped by.... man.. a real slug to the gut .. ouch .. .

Interesting chapter of my life, this year, this whole year has been.. I've done some of the scariest shit of my life, gained, lost, so much... It's just surreal!

I have access to a couple of women I know from the old days, I never have to LOOK for a woman, I can go and enjoy good wet sex and blowjobs any time I like. . But I'm just spending my time by myself, and it feels good, you know?

Shrug..



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lol this is hilarious.

god you are such a failure

I need Sex today or I'm forced to spank my monkey.....

Nah.. I don't feel that I am.
I've seen and done things that half of you never will have a chance to see or do.
I've had to go through alot of things you never will have to and couldn't handle, too.

You know I've made a financial failure of myself.. but as a human being and as a man I am aces.. and I've never leeched the system or taken anything from anyone who didn't owe me..

I wouldn't say that I'm a failure.
I've failed at some things in life, just like we all have.
I have the big heavy balls to be straight about that and anything else.
You've never failed at anything?
That's great.
We all wish that we could be as good as you.

yeah you are a fucking failure and you know it deep inside. you dont deserve anything in life, because your too stupid, while all your friends and others around you have moved on to bigger things in life, now you are old, here you are late at night sitting behind your keyboard posting on an internet board with no one to talk to.

yup that sounds like a failure.

There's no one I want to talk to. You think needing to talk and talk and whine and moan nonstop makes you a man. I've always been an island. I deal with my problems.

I don't have "friends". I've had a rule against it since I was 11 or 14 or something and it has served me well. There's one I had, he's locked and I can not contact him, so.. Got two more just two, don't see them much, I trust them they trust me that's about it. I don't get close to people.

I'm here, at home, by myself because I want to be. If I didn't want to be all I'd have to do is pick up a phone or get into my car. I've been damned good to many people. There ARE a COUPLE I can go to if I need something.

no one asked for your fucking life story you failing fuck.

I like this COUNTRY song
You going to insult me for that, too?
Who gives a fuck you fuck you, fuck you, you fuck.
My skin is thick,, for example
my skin is thicker than your whole little pee pee, son,
no problem you say what you want

So what.
There isn't one on topic thread on here half of the time.
And that's actually OKAY because it's called FUCKING AROUND and PROGRAM DISCUSSION

I didn't ask you to come into my thread saying stupid shit, either, you seventeen year old toyota type R driving using stickers to improve performance listening to chinese metal you fucking fuck

LoL over here
Who the fuck are YOU to be talkin' to ME in the first place
Egypt and Cairo look the same when a butterfly passes by you little fruit

"Dear diary..."

And idiftl.. you're supposed to be a Panther?
Funny, because, my grandmother.. great grandmother.. use to live on a block full of Panthers and they didn't sound anything like you..
You really a Panther, I'm not looking to motherfuck with a Panther but dig..
I don't believe that you are one.

That works..
DEAR GFY DIARY.. Today I banged three funny looking chicks... drove around in my Bentley.. etc etc

Oh look it, got so quiet

LuxuryMan ‎(3:54 AM):
MrMaxwell, GFY... You a fuckin' Panther?

Yeah?

LuxuryMan ‎(3:55 AM):
Why you runnin' around internet boards sayin things like this "gay trailer cunt" and nigga this nigga that and see sig nig and all of this foolishness, then, you sound like a young black kid watch too many movies, to me
Where you living at?
LuxuryMan ‎(3:58 AM):
Oh nothing to say, right, just talk when you showin out to white ties making contro on the keyboard .. yeah? What man?


.. . ..Silence.. .. .
You better BE one before you run around saying so..
Believe me it's not a damned thing funny

you can spank spank my man ass