A1R3K thank you for your reply...

NoCarrier i'm not bullshitting...

i've got a headache and need to go to bed.. really bad.. please... i will bump this tomorrow or when i wake up...

thank you gfy... i don't have anyone else to talk to... sorry...

peace...

Probably .. I would not ask for something similar here on GFY !

Dust yourself off and get back into the game. Everyone has fallen flat on their faces (even me) and you see how I've bounced back. Hell, GFED, I even met you for a brief time. You came by my shop and saw what I have. You saw my cars, my trucks, my equipment. I was in your shoes before and I can attest, it really does suck but I bouced back ans so can you. Just drop the drugs and get back into the game.

Have you ever thought that drugs may be holding you back? Maybe you can do bigger and better things but you will never know as long as you are using that chemical crutch. Bust your ass and get what you can out of life! The ride is short so enjoy it while you can!

put the coke down and hop on a plane to a warm city that you've never been before to calm the fuck down.

:thumbsup

I was in a similar situation a couple of years ago.
My very best friend was without a job and I hire him just for doing nothing and I pay him weekly. In a period of an year I received a citation from a judge for not paying him. I was so stupid ... and how I could not trust in my best friend? Well as he was not signing any receipt for my payments. The fucker demand me to pay for all over a year again.
Lesson number 1: Dont trust anybody

After that I begun just like your friend instead of 4-6 grams I was doing 10 per day, lost my girlfriend and my parents kick me out of the house so I was with no job, no friends, and no place to stay. However a good friend of mine took me to his place and take care of me. I realize that it wasnt the end of the world, and I have to restart everything again when I had it all.

Now Im better than ever living by myself earning good money, having lot of fun and with real friends and my family is pleased with me.

So stay in his world everything would be just fine.
Believe me!!!

Metalsound

BTW, If you are alive - You are never past the point of recovery, ask any former user... Scary times man, and i would highly suggest againt a 'flight to a tropical location to relax' - That is not a solution, period.

The first thing you need to do is check your self into a detox center.. You will do nothing but sleeo for 4-5 days if you are as bad as I was which it sounds like you are getting there. Also quittin painkillers leads to long lengths of sleep... Very long... I was ona prescribed does recently till my doctor found out about past abuse and when I quit that shit I felt like hell for days and didn't want to do anything but sleep...

I was so strungout by the time I hit detox I slept for 72 hours straight and felt like it was an 8 hour nap... no joke. I left immediately after as I couldn't take the xanax I was prescribed my a M.D. and believe me I needed it then.

You need to look into treatment centers, yeah it's going to break your bank and you'll be paying for years but it's better than where you are heading. I quit myself cold turkey after about 2 years of using as I mentioned above. I just decided I had enough - and after the detox the first couple days were goe throuh by sleeping which made it easier. Expect months of thinking about the drug... Years for many... for me is was 9 months roughly till it didn't even cross my mind.

Bottom Line : Detox and talk to the counselors there and make your decision, you are heading towards financial ruin and I know just a little bit about that as well ... Hit me up if you want to talk ryan1978 at isightbb dot com

- Ryan

The first step to solving your problem is realizing you have one-
There are plenty of webmasters here who go through the same stuff as you - many are sober here as well-
Know that you are not alone- I was once in a simlar situation- found myself sleeping on a friends couch with my car repo'd back in Cleveland-

I had my run ins with cocaine and know how hard that shit is to quit- After a while you won't even think about doing that drug and realize that it didn't make you feel better it only makes you feel worse. I'd get severe anxiety and depression after I used.

I got my ex some help detoxing off her 60 vicodin a day habit as well- Now that is a real bitch. It's not easy to kick- your body will react to withdrawals but in the end you will find that being alive and sober is the only way to live your life-.

morning gfy... getting up and feeling really dizzy... got something to eat and read your replies... gonna go back to bed now... i really appreciate everyones support... sorry i dont take the time to reply much... never been much of a talker... but you guys really made me feel better... really tired though... and my whole body is hurting... thanks again, i will be back...

Yo........