| will76 |
09-23-2009 07:56 PM |
Quote:
Originally Posted by SleazyDream
(Post 16353771)
Actually I've always known that you have more friends when on top then below.
The humble pie I got was when someone who I THOUGHT was a real friend told me he was only using me for money and status. That's the one that hurt me more than anything else. I should have scene the warning signs - they were there. I choose to ignore them and I got hurt for it.
There are a LOT of really good people in this business. REALLY good.
The difference between me and many out there is I'm HAPPY, happy as punch to be in this business for any amount of income that allows me and the people I work with to comfortably survive. I genuinely LIKE porn and most of the people in it. I don't look down on porn stars, sluts and swingers. I see them as equals and not as people to USE but as people to work with to make money. I've never scene myself as someone who looked down on this business or the people in it, and I should have scene the warning signs with Jman from the amount of times he'd tell he how much he hated porn or the people in it and how he doesn't work in porn even though all the money he gets paid comes indirectly from porn - he's always been very adamant about that. He's told me many times that porn and the people in it exist for him to take advantage of. You can see that in his posts. I created Sleazydream not just to make money but to have the site that I wanted to exist be in existence. It was different than anything else in it's time. I'm now working on something else that I honestly believe SHOULD exist, yes i think it'll do amazing, but even if it doesn't i don't care so long as I can make a decent living and be HAPPY doing it and adding something to the world that i feel is a benefit and will leave my mark on it in my own fucked up little way.
Am I an idiot? - yes
Did I know I fell into a trap? - Yes - I knew exactly why this thread came up. It was clear to me from the first post it was against things I had said before on here. I just decided to jump in anyway - I've always been a heads first kind of guy and I'd like to think I can take punches as well as give em - even if I do say outch a lot.
Am I fucked up? - probally.
Can I be emotional? - yes - i'm human and not devoid of emotion.
Will I get over this? - YES. just takes some time as I got emotionally hurt by someone I trusted
Will I trust again - probably not Jman ( i may forgive him but my trust with him is gone ) but I will trust others and I will get burned again. Why do it again, cause there are soo many GOOD experiences that the bad ones are worth dealing with to experience the good ones.
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Get over it? I wouldn't forgive and forget thats for sure. Just move on, no need to make up with the person or feel that you should. I would just write them off, let it go, chalk it up and move on. Find new friends and try to pick them better next time.
The thing I didn't like about you was your self enflated ego. The "if I don't know you, then you must be a nobody" attitude. The " i fly first class to all the industry shows, own this own this, blah blah I am better than you" etc... bullshit.
Sounds like you are now one of those nobodies (according to your logic a couple years ago) that you called idiots, noobs, etc...
I have no hard feelings against you, so many people on here did a lot worst things like scam people, steal from them, stolen content, spyware, etc etc.... You seem honest, sincere and now a little more humble.
Just learn from your mistakes and let it go with jman and move on, rehashing the story every couple days, explaining how you got burnt, you wasting too much energy and you never going to push ahead if you can't let that shit go. I am not saying to forgive, i wouldn't but I would just put it out of my mind, write it up as a loss, a learning experience and worry about making money and moving forward and not think about it any more. Muchless waste time explaining myself over and over about it to others. |
