best of luck to you Lori.

sorry to hear about that. i hope the 2 weeks you are spending in hawaii right now help to clear your head.

...... SLAM... Is that true?

Lori. I wish you all the success and joy you deserve! It takes a lot of courage to bare your soul on GFY! :thumbsup:

"It's not what happen to us that matters,
it's what we do about it that counts."

You have stopped reacting to what is happening to you, and now you act!
2010 will be a happier and more successful year for you and your daughter! :thumbsup

:helpme:helpme:helpme

Hope you are doing bettter and best of luck.

Best wishes

Lori, I went through something similar to you a few years back while losing my marriage to divorce and my mom to cancer. Pick your head up as I am proof things do get better with time.

SweetT - As always, a genuinely nice guy.

Jaques - Nice offer man. Very nice of you!

Jay - Thats a huge offer, Jay. very nice of you!

Stay strong Lori. Trust in your strength and the strength of your daughter. Together there is nothing both of you can overcome.

Sorry to hear about your struggle girlie, but it sounds like you are bouncing back. Good luck and I wish you the best.

Life is up and down... I have been at the very bottom on multiple occasions... so I can feel what you are going through... but the key is to focus on what you have and not what you lost. Positive thinking will carry you where you want to go. I met you once but I am sure you don't remember me... from my perspective you have a wealth of contacts and track record that you can leverage to pull yourself back up. All is not lost. :D

Hey Lori,

I'm so sorry that you are going through this. You are a strong person and you will land on your feet. I think I speak for a majority (of the good people) that frequent this board when i say we would all like to help in some way. Can you post your address or paypal account so those who want to help you can? If you prefer to keep it private I understand, but would you please email your info [email protected].

My heart goes out to you and your daughter. I wish you only the best.

Much Love.

Lori, hang in there, I know your pain, I too have been recently down that road, keep pushing forward, it's tough, but it will get better. Interestingly, last night (as I do every year at this time) watched "It's a Wonderful Life" with Jimmy Stewart. Watch it, it might help you put things into perspective. Cherish your friends, you have many out there.

Kevin

douchebag.

Lori, I remember attending the dinner you through a couple years ago and it was a great networking opportunity that I truly appreciated. I know you've worked your ass off in this biz and how much effort you put into it. I'm sorry to hear about your struggles.

Take this time to gather yourself and then get back in the game. It's not easy, but pull up your bootstraps and come out of the chute blazing. You have the strength, knowledge and contacts to get it done. It's tough to be in the B2B field and even tougher when you are dealing with the stress of being a single parent, having all of this weight and still trying to keep things going. Let the weight be your motivator. Let this be what drives you onward and upward rather than drag you down.

I just heard the same thing. She was in Hawaii for MK's wedding?
Is this true Lori?
Seems strange to take off to Hawaii when your world seems to be crashing down around you but hey, everyone deals with stress differently.

I wish her all the best none the less.

Good for her, hope she relaxed a bit :2 cents:

thank you so very much. I appreciate so much your offer and I know I may need some advice.

Look forward to connecting in the New Year and wishing you a wonderful holiday - thank you so much again.

Sincerely,

Lori Z.

It's Christmas. She's got a 9 year old as a single mom.

Here is to a new year, 2010. May it be better than the old one for many of us.

Hi Lori,

I just saw / read this thread.

I have seen you post for many years but I don't know - think we have ever met.

You sound like a good person and a great mom - 2 things I totally respect as do most pppl. :)

Hang in there - times will get better, keep your head on as straight as possible, ok.

I have '5' daughters and I understand it can be rough, especially around the holidays...

Let's chat sometime if you want, icq is below and my email is: todd at programs.net

Wishing you and yours the best this holiday season..

Sweet T, As usual.... No words need to be said :)


Hugs and Loves,

Todd

I think EVERYONE here is sympathize to that. It's just odd her world fell apart and she's broke, yet in Hawaii, meaning, she ain't too broke. I think that is what they are saying.

I don't know her, but I was raised by a single mom on welfare, 2 other kids besides me, dad left, so my heart goes out to her. Happy holidays to her and her little girl.

Yes, thank you.

of course you heard Kevin - the difference is the way the person said it -they had their own motives obviously and many who are in the know, know who it is doing it. And it is to cause drama and pain.

Perhaps they forgot to mention the part of knowing it cost thousands of dollars on credit cards months ago to book a trip out of friendship and then it would cost thousands in penalties to undo it all.

the real truth of your persons evasive rumor that obviously has motives is this -

we didn't continue with the trip because of the wedding.

we are here because I used the money spent on the wedding trip to stay in a home here for recovery. And I am here healing.

So there you are - it's a shame this 'person' attempted to capitalize on the suffering of me and my daughter and create drama in others lives and bring that into this. I think their actions and who they are speak for themselves.


Happy Holidays Kevin - thank you for your post.

We have had many conversations over these weeks and I am grateful for not only having the honor to work with you but also grateful for your friendship and support.

And yes - I am getting better - your text meant a lot.

happy holidays, I think they are getting a little happier for us.
xoxo

Glad to hear you are getting help LZ- SERIOUSLY glad.

Do u know who the people are who told me this information?
I find it funny that some of the people telling this information are the same people coming here wishing you well.

I am sure there are motives behind this I can't seem to fathom.
Either way, If you need further help, I hope you will take me up on my offer.

I have plenty of contacts who can help a single mother with some issues.

Happy New Year

thank you Jenni. I return to LA in a few days. As in truth above, I am finishing out a trip in a healing house and yes, it would be nice to see you. I am ready to start seeing people again.

I am not sure I have your number. I have also not been on email for a long time but I am just starting to dig into it now and if you can email me your number I will make sure to look for it. thank you again Jenni.
wishing you and your family a wonderful and peaceful holiday.

THANK YOU Kevin. Yes, I would be appreciative of any referrals that offer assistance. when I get back can I call you for the information? I am not sure I have your phone number though, is it possible to email it?

Sure.
I just need to find out from you more information first so I can call my friends who work for Jewish Family Services.

Tony, - every word of my email to you comes from the bottom of my heart. G-d Bless You.
Thank you.

Hope things look up or you , what exactly is meant by recovery ? If you dont want to get into details understandable have a happy and healthy. :thumbsup

PS TONY MORGAN YOU ARE WHAT US JEWS CALL A TOTAL "MENSCHE!"

I hope you and your family have a wonderful XMAS and a very Happy New Year!
See you in Vegas for the millionth time in January!

can you please call me and I can tell you more in depth? do you have my number? please text me first as my voicemail has been full for a long time because I could not face the communication before I was ready. I don't want to miss your call so please text me - I would really like to talk with you. Thank you Kevin!

I dont have your number- sent you mine via email 45 mins ago
Is your inbox as full as your voicemail?

Lori, your one of the few people in this industry who are trustworthy AND deliver. On top of this, your a woman who operates in an industry that usually degrade women. You should hold your head up high because you've deserved it.

If there is ever anything I can do for you, let me know.

it's ok. I will tell you - because like telling the truth of my life in my first post, it made me own the truth and accept what has happened. My saying the words made me truly have to accept the reality.

by your asking me to share about my recovery - you are helping me admit and own this reality too.

when I would have lost thousands of dollars I put out for a friend, it forced me to leave my environment of where everything happened. When I arrived, I saw getting out of LA helped me catch a breath and because we were no longer traveling for a wedding, I found a remote home owned by a lovely gay couple that opens its door to travelers.

their environment is calming, and peaceful and they have helped me find the Hawaii place of healing refuge, have set me up with healers.

my breakdown left me fragile and the serenity here is helping me purge the final tears of my emotional, mental and physical breakdown. so I see now why I was not allowed to cancel the wedding money. it ended up taking me to a place to recover from the devastation and a place where my daughter could escape the chaos and smile again while I work on myself and spend desperately needed quality time with her she lost during my breakdown months.

In addition, I will add the truth of my physical condition and face that truth with you as well.

I have lived with a medical conidtion for over 30 years. I have Crohn's disease that has hospitalized me more than 40 times in my llife. I have survived 5 surgeries and I was forced back into the hospital twice this year as my body broke down more from what I have been going through.

Many know I was in the hospital before and after Phoenix, what many do not know is that for all the years the industry has known me, I have been in the hospital over a dozen times and have had operations because the physical pain I deal with took its toll. I have worked from the hospital and ER room without the industry ever knowing the excruciating pain that brought me to my knees.

I fought it every waking day and every sleepless night of doubled over pain. And I worked deals while doubled over, because nobody saw me on the other side of the computer screen. I was scared I would be perceived as weak if I told I live with a serious medical condition.

And when what has happened to me and my daughter this year threatened to put me back in an operating room, that was one of the final moments of knowing what could happen if I gave up.

My medical bills have run over six figures and I've lived with it all my life. it used to control my life but I had to accept and live with a medical illness because I have no choice and I have always had to keep working and hide it so I could make money and support my daughter.

this recovery is not only to help heal my body and keep me out of the hospital which I could not bear my daughter to endure with me again, it is also healing my emotional and mental levels of self that broke.

So I am glad you asked what recovery meant, because for each question I am answering, it makes me accept the truth for myself and in the acceptance, I have found, that the acceptance of what I have lost, whom I have lost and the reality of what I am going through is where the beginning of peace has begun. I am finding peace in my heart and that is helping to heal my breakdown and my body that broke.

I am no more fighting my reality and what I have lived with.

I am learning to acknowledge myself and respect myself that I have survived through so much medically for so many years and not to hide it anymore from people.

I am taking the steps on the other levels to survive them too. And hopefully, with that, and a lot of prayer to G-d, that I will begin again in mind, body, spirit balance.

And that is what I am doing from the place I type this. I believe all that brought me to this point was meant to happen because recovery found me, or I found it. And I am beyond words of gratitude for the courage to face it, but also for letting myself share it.

I realized I have nothing left to lose or have someone take from me by doing so. and maybe by my sharing my long life journey and story will help someone else - I hope so.

to share my heart, my truth, my story is like a bird being set free out of a cage that had its door open for so long but did not have the faith its wings were strong enough to fly out. I tested the faith of my wings when I wrote my first post-it was a scary moment and that is why I avoided it for so long.

but I did it and I left the cage - and I didn't fall rock bottom again like I thought would happen. by facing it and doing it, I see I am flying a little again, but with peace.

Thank you for asking me this question to share more truth. This thread has truly been a live changing experience for me. Thank you for being a part of it.

Lori Z

Mike, your post means a lot to me and thank you for your support. I am humbled by any help offered so I will give you paypal address --

[email protected]

I am no longer too proud to ask for help or decline it.

I wish you all the very best in the New Year. I am going to recover slowly - but at least I know I am on the road to recovery now. thank you for being a part of it.

Love,
Lori

Kevin, - our phone conversation was a moment on this long path that I will always cherish.

thank you from the bottom of my heart and tears.

I am taking your advice and going to take my daughter on that much needed mommy and me walk now. - another step forward. xo


-
my appreciation to everyone who has posted and offered assistance - may your New Year bring to you as much goodness as you have extended to me.

Again, I am more than happy to help anyone who is truly in need of help-
You already overcame the biggest hurdle- remember what I said.


Now go for that walk, and get yourself healthy- we'll be seeing each other real soon and talking a lot more

Lori, that's def rough! One of my bf's sister's has it and her diet is severely restricted, not to mention the "episodes" that cause her to experience HUGE amounts of pain as well, so I can only imagine.

It must be a relief to stop trying to hide such an obviously debilitating disease...I can't imagine trying to go to a show and mingle :(

Keep your head up! You're an inspiration to all us women in the biz :pimp

Lori, you're a great person!