Is Everything Okay? Are You Doing All Right?

[BFT3K]

[L-Pink]

Doing well!




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[heymatty]

Yes. Thanks for asking though.

[Barefootsies]

No complaints.

Thanks for asking.

[Iron Fist]

Meh... it is what it is.

[AIbenjamink]

Doing very well.

Thanks for asking

[Big Red Machine]

Alrighty Neighbor
and u?

[After Shock Media]

If you see me posting after Saturday then all is pretty well. If not well just in case - it has been a hoot.

[Elli]

Originally Posted by After Shock Media

If you see me posting after Saturday then all is pretty well. If not well just in case - it has been a hoot.

[mikesinner]

I feel like there is a stone inside my chest but other than that everything is great.

[96ukssob]

its going ok. probably more stress than i need in my life, but trying to get that down and down

[J. Falcon]

doing well

[Babaganoosh]

Originally Posted by After Shock Media

If you see me posting after Saturday then all is pretty well. If not well just in case - it has been a hoot.

Did I miss something? If you posted about what's going on I definitely missed it. I've never particularly liked you but I certainly don't want anything to happen to you. GFY needs more worthy debaters like you. Best of luck. Seriously.

[Nicky]

Can't complain at all

[After Shock Media]

Originally Posted by Babaganoosh

Did I miss something? If you posted about what's going on I definitely missed it. I've never particularly liked you but I certainly don't want anything to happen to you. GFY needs more worthy debaters like you. Best of luck. Seriously.

I do not take the debates personally. Just a small handful of people I would place in my do not like category. The rest are just people I know, friends, associates, and assorted folks I occasionally bitch with over nothing to important really (the majority).

I have not posted a recent long ass update. Felt you all had enough with Paul and well even though the trolls do not bother me they pollute such threads and get people bitching.

Quick synapses: I had and beat cancer 2 years ago. Different type showed up earlier this year, type of skin cancer but on scar tissue. Should of been a non issue but the hospital somehow fucked everything up. I pretty much almost kicked the bucket that day and even though I only remember a day or two apparently there was close to 8 surgeries or procedures and somehow they fucked my kidneys to boot - they at least are doing better.
Anyways this left me with a gapping wound that needs dressing changed daily, in home nurse, lots of fucking drugs, and I am not allowed to even sit up. I am gurney transport everywhere do to risk of sudden bleed out or other shit.

I of course have been a sitting duck with a huge open wound infection wise. I am also waiting to get into Stanford so 2 surgeons can work on me. Since after everything the first hospital did not even remove all of the fucking cancer. Cancer is not spreading, not in super bad place etc. They just can not use chemo or radiation as it would kill my immune system and with my wound would mean very fucked for me. Anyways I need to have them cut out the rest and then I can have the other figure out how we will close up the wound at a latter surgery date.

Friday - I have an appointment at Stanford to meet with both doctors. To get evaluated, give them my films, and meet them to set a future date. Anyways I need to be down there by 9am for my appointments. That means leaving here around 4am or so. The problem is transportation. My asshole oncologist refuses to write a prescription for medical transport. So unless I can convince my wound doctor to write a script for such even though he is not the referring doctor. It would mean I would have to take normal transportation down there. That also means sitting up for 12-14 hours which is like 11.45 to 13.45 more time up than I am allowed. Not to mention no increase in pain meds which pretty much do not work worth a shit anyways.

To top it off my hemoglobin is sitting at 5.4 which is VERY fucking anemic and means I need blood in a serious way. Can not go get it and miss the appointment since that would tie me up for a week or so. Though one good bleed and I am in the land of dirt. Isn't gambling fun.

Secondary hope is at very least I could get my secondary doctor to write me a script for liquid morphine drops I can take as needed to be zoned out during travel. That would at least help with half of the battle.

So anyways if I am not here late Saturday either I am stuck in some ER between here and Stanford or poof!

[Babaganoosh]

Holy fucking shit. I feel like an asshole for whining about the hang nail I have and the little bit of diarrhea I got from bad shrimp at the local Red Wok.

If I can do anything to help in any way, please let me know.

[After Shock Media]

Originally Posted by Babaganoosh

Holy fucking shit. I feel like an asshole for whining about the hang nail I have and the little bit of diarrhea I got from bad shrimp at the local Red Wok.

If I can do anything to help in any way, please let me know.

This is my daily life man. I appreciate the offers but the best anyone can do is just think positive and in the event I do kick it, do not give my wife to hard of a time when she takes over - assuming she posts here.

[SleazyDream]

i'm not OK. The ex-employee theif got the prosecutor to drop the charges on him from when he stole $30K from me today.

[Elli]

ASM, I will be thinking the most positive thoughts I can in your direction. And feel free to tell your asshole doctor about his asshole-ness on behalf of everyone decent here. Go get that hole sewn up! Best of fortune and good health to you and your wife!

[SleazyDream]

Originally Posted by After Shock Media

I do not take the debates personally. Just a small handful of people I would place in my do not like category. The rest are just people I know, friends, associates, and assorted folks I occasionally bitch with over nothing to important really (the majority).

I have not posted a recent long ass update. Felt you all had enough with Paul and well even though the trolls do not bother me they pollute such threads and get people bitching.

Quick synapses: I had and beat cancer 2 years ago. Different type showed up earlier this year, type of skin cancer but on scar tissue. Should of been a non issue but the hospital somehow fucked everything up. I pretty much almost kicked the bucket that day and even though I only remember a day or two apparently there was close to 8 surgeries or procedures and somehow they fucked my kidneys to boot - they at least are doing better.
Anyways this left me with a gapping wound that needs dressing changed daily, in home nurse, lots of fucking drugs, and I am not allowed to even sit up. I am gurney transport everywhere do to risk of sudden bleed out or other shit.

I of course have been a sitting duck with a huge open wound infection wise. I am also waiting to get into Stanford so 2 surgeons can work on me. Since after everything the first hospital did not even remove all of the fucking cancer. Cancer is not spreading, not in super bad place etc. They just can not use chemo or radiation as it would kill my immune system and with my wound would mean very fucked for me. Anyways I need to have them cut out the rest and then I can have the other figure out how we will close up the wound at a latter surgery date.

Friday - I have an appointment at Stanford to meet with both doctors. To get evaluated, give them my films, and meet them to set a future date. Anyways I need to be down there by 9am for my appointments. That means leaving here around 4am or so. The problem is transportation. My asshole oncologist refuses to write a prescription for medical transport. So unless I can convince my wound doctor to write a script for such even though he is not the referring doctor. It would mean I would have to take normal transportation down there. That also means sitting up for 12-14 hours which is like 11.45 to 13.45 more time up than I am allowed. Not to mention no increase in pain meds which pretty much do not work worth a shit anyways.

To top it off my hemoglobin is sitting at 5.4 which is VERY fucking anemic and means I need blood in a serious way. Can not go get it and miss the appointment since that would tie me up for a week or so. Though one good bleed and I am in the land of dirt. Isn't gambling fun.

Secondary hope is at very least I could get my secondary doctor to write me a script for liquid morphine drops I can take as needed to be zoned out during travel. That would at least help with half of the battle.

So anyways if I am not here late Saturday either I am stuck in some ER between here and Stanford or poof!

I feel horrible for saying this but that puts things in perspective. Thank you if that's ok to say. I feel for you.

[After Shock Media]

Originally Posted by SleazyDream

I feel horrible for saying this but that puts things in perspective. Thank you if that's ok to say. I feel for you.

Actually I am very cool with it.
It is one of the reasons I even share my personal life on here. I know it can help others get past issues of their own.

Trust me it is not the place to post for sympathy posts.

[SleazyDream]

Originally Posted by After Shock Media

Actually I am very cool with it.
It is one of the reasons I even share my personal life on here. I know it can help others get past issues of their own.

Trust me it is not the place to post for sympathy posts.

believe me I know - it is a place to post if you're looking for ideas on most ANY topic though

[After Shock Media]

Originally Posted by SleazyDream

believe me I know - it is a place to post if you're looking for ideas on most ANY topic though

Yeah thats true. I do use the place for business but it is more a social outlet and a way to pass some time talking about anything under the sun. There is more than a fair share of idiots on here, some even have a valid point on occasions, there just happens to also be a good share of very smart people who you can talk or debate anything about.

[PSSuperstars]

Originally Posted by After Shock Media

Yeah thats true. I do use the place for business but it is more a social outlet and a way to pass some time talking about anything under the sun. There is more than a fair share of idiots on here, some even have a valid point on occasions, there just happens to also be a good share of very smart people who you can talk or debate anything about.

Seriously. If you can sit here and post..
and work..
and do all that you do... with the issues that you have... Geezus Christ, I'm never whining again about anything small or inconveniencing ever..
You're an inspiration

[SleazyDream]

Originally Posted by After Shock Media

Yeah thats true. I do use the place for business but it is more a social outlet and a way to pass some time talking about anything under the sun. There is more than a fair share of idiots on here, some even have a valid point on occasions, there just happens to also be a good share of very smart people who you can talk or debate anything about.

that sums up GFY

[BFT3K]

Wow, I just made up this thread as a joke before signing off last night.

I figured it would get 2 or 3 unrelated replies at best.

I'm happy some of you are doing okay, and for those of you who are not doing so well, I wish you the best!

I can never predict which postings on GFY will get attention, and which will simply die off.

Very strange demographic....

[After Shock Media]

Originally Posted by PSSuperstars

Seriously. If you can sit here and post..
and work..
and do all that you do... with the issues that you have... Geezus Christ, I'm never whining again about anything small or inconveniencing ever..
You're an inspiration

Always be very grateful for what you do have going, trust me things can always be much much worse. If I were to recount my life story odds are I would get called out at least thirty times with assorted claims of bullshit, just due to the amount of shit I have been through, had done to me, or am still living through. That above portion just goes over a brief period from two years ago (bladder cancer) and 4-5 months ago. I have roughly 39 years of it in total. Although the first 5-7 years of my life were not "that bad", just a little abuse here and there from a woman who was capable of giving birth to me. To think I would be paralyzed by age 12 and yet still on my own by 17 by choice.
I have had good, great, and even beyond memorable events in my life. I never felt that short changed. I just know to live life by your own principles, do whats right even when others will never know, and do not put any faith in good or evil, or such novel idea's as karma. Enjoy your experiences, learn what you can, do what your able, and try to have as few regrets as possible. Do your best to never use the I cant excuse, cause anyone typically can if they try.

[96ukssob]

Originally Posted by After Shock Media

I do not take the debates personally. Just a small handful of people I would place in my do not like category. The rest are just people I know, friends, associates, and assorted folks I occasionally bitch with over nothing to important really (the majority).

I have not posted a recent long ass update. Felt you all had enough with Paul and well even though the trolls do not bother me they pollute such threads and get people bitching.

Quick synapses: I had and beat cancer 2 years ago. Different type showed up earlier this year, type of skin cancer but on scar tissue. Should of been a non issue but the hospital somehow fucked everything up. I pretty much almost kicked the bucket that day and even though I only remember a day or two apparently there was close to 8 surgeries or procedures and somehow they fucked my kidneys to boot - they at least are doing better.
Anyways this left me with a gapping wound that needs dressing changed daily, in home nurse, lots of fucking drugs, and I am not allowed to even sit up. I am gurney transport everywhere do to risk of sudden bleed out or other shit.

I of course have been a sitting duck with a huge open wound infection wise. I am also waiting to get into Stanford so 2 surgeons can work on me. Since after everything the first hospital did not even remove all of the fucking cancer. Cancer is not spreading, not in super bad place etc. They just can not use chemo or radiation as it would kill my immune system and with my wound would mean very fucked for me. Anyways I need to have them cut out the rest and then I can have the other figure out how we will close up the wound at a latter surgery date.

Friday - I have an appointment at Stanford to meet with both doctors. To get evaluated, give them my films, and meet them to set a future date. Anyways I need to be down there by 9am for my appointments. That means leaving here around 4am or so. The problem is transportation. My asshole oncologist refuses to write a prescription for medical transport. So unless I can convince my wound doctor to write a script for such even though he is not the referring doctor. It would mean I would have to take normal transportation down there. That also means sitting up for 12-14 hours which is like 11.45 to 13.45 more time up than I am allowed. Not to mention no increase in pain meds which pretty much do not work worth a shit anyways.

To top it off my hemoglobin is sitting at 5.4 which is VERY fucking anemic and means I need blood in a serious way. Can not go get it and miss the appointment since that would tie me up for a week or so. Though one good bleed and I am in the land of dirt. Isn't gambling fun.

Secondary hope is at very least I could get my secondary doctor to write me a script for liquid morphine drops I can take as needed to be zoned out during travel. That would at least help with half of the battle.

So anyways if I am not here late Saturday either I am stuck in some ER between here and Stanford or poof!

holy shit man, im sorry to hear that. i hope things go well this weekend.

I thought you were from southern Cali, but isnt Standford in northern CA?

[After Shock Media]

Originally Posted by bossku69

holy shit man, im sorry to hear that. i hope things go well this weekend.

I thought you were from southern Cali, but isnt Standford in northern CA?

I live in Northern California and whats funny. Stanford to me is still considered southern California or at a minimum middle California.

I live in Redding, that big city between Sacramento and Oregon. We are about 4-5 hours north of Stanford, assuming no traffic issues in Sacramento, Concord/bay area, etc.

Crazy shit is, this is all just for a fucking appointment with those two doctors. Not even a admission or anything. Odds are it is something that "could" be done by webcam conference. They always find fun ways to risk my life.

[96ukssob]

Originally Posted by After Shock Media

I live in Northern California and whats funny. Stanford to me is still considered southern California or at a minimum middle California.

I live in Redding, that big city between Sacramento and Oregon. We are about 4-5 hours north of Stanford, assuming no traffic issues in Sacramento, Concord/bay area, etc.

Crazy shit is, this is all just for a fucking appointment with those two doctors. Not even a admission or anything. Odds are it is something that "could" be done by webcam conference. They always find fun ways to risk my life.

thats messed up how they are making come all the way out there for just an appointment.

can someone drive you there? if i lived in the area or at least state i would take you, but dont think i will make it in time from PA even if i left now

[Sarah_Jayne]

Sitting at the table in my parents' house while their pastor is visiting with them in the next room. I am doing weird..no other way to say it.

[Elli]

Originally Posted by Sarah_MaxCash

Sitting at the table in my parents' house while their pastor is visiting with them in the next room. I am doing weird..no other way to say it.

That sounds strangely awkward.

[Wilsy]

im doing great thanks for asking i hope everyone else is doing good too

[quiet]

all i can say is, damn. you've got some balls, that for sure. i really hope you pull through.

[After Shock Media]

Originally Posted by bossku69

thats messed up how they are making come all the way out there for just an appointment.

can someone drive you there? if i lived in the area or at least state i would take you, but dont think i will make it in time from PA even if i left now

Someone will be taking me. That sort of is not really the point. See I am supposed to be laying down prone and not sit up for more than 15 minutes a day. I am supposed to be on gurney transport even to my local doctor appointments, which I have one today. They will show up with a gurney, transfer me to it, and I will remain laying down while they drive me to the appointment and take me back home. That is medical transport.

Issue is since my asshole oncologist who is my referring doctor to Stanford will not write a prescription for medical transport to my appointment at Stanford, because his social worker or whatever she was said she never heard of medical transport requiring such things before. Means I can not arrange for medical transport to Stanford. I.E. no prescription = no ability to hire medical transportation even with cash.

Which if anyone is curious such transport by "ambulance" type vehicle is 5,700.00 each direction. Plane flight or helicopter transport is 29,000 each direction and does not include extra fee for transportation from airport/pad to appointment. Figures just rounded off.

So what I need to do is make it that long sitting up, risking a bleed out with my anemia level. Here is the averages - The normal range of hemoglobin is approximately 14 to 17 grams per deciliter for men and 12 to 16 grams per deciliter for women. Mine is currently sitting at 5.4 as of last test almost a week ago. So it is probably between 5.2 to 5.8 right now if it went up any. That indicates how many red blood cells you have. So I am below half empty - for most they would pass out at my levels.

The above does not take into account the pain levels I will have to endure. I am already in chronic pain, plus the wound pain - which I would be sitting on. Currently my pain meds barely put a dent in it. I often am covered in sweat or teared up most ours of the day from the pain. Yes pain alone can kill people. I am hoping my doctor I am seeing today will at least give me some stronger liquid meds I can take with me. I would not expect him to write a script for the transport since he would be risking his license as he is not the referring doctor, but he can at least work on the pain issue.

I was thinking of maybe having the wife take the pickup and having a bed made in the back. Aside from the cold, I thought it was a good idea until we thought about the vibration. Same vibration would happen on the floor of a van as well. We may end up taking the van we have and trying to rig a bed in that with straps across the seats in the back. We will figure it out. Just is going to be a very trying journey no matter how it goes, there is a reason though they take me places via gurney with two people in the van. One having to be well trained as an EMT of course.

Fuck me how do all my replies end up so long.

[munki]

Originally Posted by After Shock Media

Actually I am very cool with it.
It is one of the reasons I even share my personal life on here. I know it can help others get past issues of their own.

Trust me it is not the place to post for sympathy posts.

You will do fine, Beth and I have yet to eat one of your gourmet selections, and something universally tells me that this must be accomplished before you get to check out...

[Sarah_Jayne]

Originally Posted by Elli

That sounds strangely awkward.

It really was and more so when they asked me to pray.

[After Shock Media]

Originally Posted by Sarah_MaxCash

It really was and more so when they asked me to pray.

You actually have issue with that?
I really do not have much issue when I visit peoples houses and find out they pray before meals or whatever. It is about as much of an issue as those who do not allow people to wear shoes in their house. Just another personal quirk or household issue.

Guess I would find it odd happening at my house though.

[TurboAngel]

I'm doing well and I hope you are all so.

[ShellyCrash]

After Shock- so sorry to hear that. The way I see things until they assign you a Hospice nurse you know you've got a shot.

Here's to hoping things go the right way and things get closed up for you soon. The way staph infections have been going around in hospital you're probably safer spending your time between visits at home. It really sucks though to hear the travel is so precarious.

You have my best wishes and support.

[woj]

Originally Posted by Barefootsies

No complaints.

Thanks for asking.

[woj]

I wish I would have read the whole thread before posting
ASM, hope you get well

[After Shock Media]

Originally Posted by ShellyCrash

After Shock- so sorry to hear that. The way I see things until they assign you a Hospice nurse you know you've got a shot.

Here's to hoping things go the right way and things get closed up for you soon. The way staph infections have been going around in hospital you're probably safer spending your time between visits at home. It really sucks though to hear the travel is so precarious.

You have my best wishes and support.

Funny you say that as my nurse is an on call hospice nurse. The cancer is not life threatening yet, it just is in the way of allowing them to close the wound. The wound prevents any cancer treatments besides surgery to cut it out. Sort of a nasty circle. I know I always do have a shot, with my life that is the one thing that has always held true. I will live long enough to regret or feel everything.

I learned long ago to avoid hospitals and offices unless needed due to other sick people. Even before I was a sitting duck. I have gone a few rounds with assorted MRSA infections, none are pleasant. Good news is that since I have had them I always get a solo room in the hospital now at no extra charge, due to policy.

Thanks for your and others support.

Originally Posted by woj

I wish I would have read the whole thread before posting
ASM, hope you get well

No reason to not be happy with your life man. It was not just a question directed at me ya know. Good to know people have good lives. Honestly I can say I am happy this is mine and not someone else's.

[Sarah_Jayne]

Originally Posted by After Shock Media

You actually have issue with that?
I really do not have much issue when I visit peoples houses and find out they pray before meals or whatever. It is about as much of an issue as those who do not allow people to wear shoes in their house. Just another personal quirk or household issue.

Guess I would find it odd happening at my house though.

It was a hold hands in a circle and pray thing. Which, I did out of respect of my parents. Just like I always go to church with them when I am here. It just is so far removed from how I live these days even if I wasn't working on porn in the next room at the same time.